When I survey the wondrous cross
On which the Prince of Glory died
My richest gain I count but loss
And pour contempt on all my pride
See from his head, his hands, his feet
Sorrow and love flow mingled down
Did ever such love and sorrow meet
Or thorns compose so rich a crown
O the wonderful cross, O the wonderful cross
Bids me come and die and find that I may truly live
O the wonderful cross, O the wonderful cross
All who gather here by grace draw near and bless
Your name
Were the whole realm of nature mine
That were an offering far too small
Love so amazing, so divine
Demands my soul, my life, my all
This year, Easter is a travel day for me. I’m in Bourbonnais, Illinois right now and plan to be in Madison, Wisconsin in time for dinner with my grandparents. I seem to spend lots of holidays on the road – in fact it’s practically an Olsen tradition – much to my mother’s despair.
Today I’m reminded of this song by Chris Tomlin - the words are stuck in my head playing over and over as I ponder the idea of sacrifice. Even though I’m on vacation, I am cutting visits to some of my dearest friends fairly short in order to make it back to Lex for a meeting. It’s a sacrifice I chose to make, but I now find myself wondering whether the sacrifice is really worth it. It’s not a meeting I NEED to make, but it’’s a meeting I WANT to make, so the choice was mine.
Life requires that we make tons of choices between needs and wants . But all too often, the time we NEED to spend with people is trumped by the things we WANT to get accomplished. I have a good friend who reminds me “people before projects.” That phrase always leaves me torn. If we devote ourselves to people, the projects never get done. But if we sacrifice the people for the projects, do the projects really matter? This world is a madly busy place, and I feel no small amount of despair when I find myself being sucked in. A good friend an I have a running pipe dream about casting everything away and living the most simplistic lives imaginable. Perhaps we’re not so far off in our thinking.
Anyways, to move abruptly back to the cross, today is Easter, the day we remember Christ’s sacrifice for our lives. Remembering that sacrifice helps me to check my priorities. Am I living a life that is worthy of the sacrifice made on the cross for me?
It’s not a guilt thing (guilt, which can be good, is also a tool Christians have used for years as a prime manipulator) rather, a perspective thing. If I could step outside of myself for a moment and imagine a path set before me, and then further imagine my decisions and time spent as rocks thrown away from me, where do they land? Do they fall anywhere near the path? If not, how far to they stray? It’s a odd illustration, but for me it works. The beauty of the cross is that Christ really doesn’t care about the rocks that don’t land on the path, he just wants to make sure that I don’t toss so many rocks off that I create a new path. So I don’t have to feel guilty about the rocks that miss, but if I zoomed-out Google Earth style, I’d at least like to be able to see where I’m going… and on which path. And as anyone who has enrolled in one of my father’s chemistry courses can attest, my aim is notoriously poor. Thanks dad…
Anyways, I saw a great concert last night in Chicago – the guy’s name is William Fitzsimmons. I went to college with the guy, and now he’s a (really) big-time folk singer. Go William! A few years back he went through a nasty divorce, and his music tells the story – the anger, guilt, despair, and eventual
forgiveness and moving on. It’s powerful stuff, and it speaks particularly strongly to me as one who’s been through divorce myself. William’s stated goal is to help people find healing through his music. I dig that, and hope to hear a lot more from him. He’s on tour right now, so if he’s in your area, spend the money and check him out.
http://www.williamfitzsimmons.com